Blocking my own blessings

(writings not bold are whispers in your ear)

“If we say we love God and don’t love each other, we are liars. We cannot see God. So how can we love God, if we don’t love the people we can see?”

 

Have you ever hated, disliked, cant stand, whatever you want to call it somebody so much to the point you don’t care if they died tomorrow? You don’t care about how their family & friends will hurt. How their children won’t have a parent anymore. How their parents won’t have that child anymore. You just don’t give a fuck and will not have a bother in your heart, mind or soul?

 

I do….

 

I was bored at work one day and for some reason the people that I dislike the most were all standing there. Two of them I know exactly why they were there. But one really stuck out to me. I had to really take a look at myself and wonder why this person was there. I came up with a reason. It was a dumb reason but it was a reason.

 

Even the feelings I have towards the other 2 people. I feel they are legit reasons but in reality are they???

 

What does that say about me as a person? I can have feelings so strong and so wrong towards somebody and the reasons I come up with are even dumb to me?!?! I can hold on to anger and pain so tough to the point where I don’t care about that person losing their life?!?! “Be angry, and yet do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger.” Eph 4:26

 

That’s not cool! I had to check myself. It said a couple things to me like, I need to let a lot of things in my past go. I’m blocking my own blessings by having these feelings towards those people. I have a lot of anger in me that I need to let go so I can stop blocking my blessings because these feelings are not harbors on the people I have these feelings towards. They are harbors on me and my soul. I need to learn to forgive, forget and move on…  “If you do not forgive, neither will your father who is in heaven forgive your transgressions.” Mark 11:26

 

I guess the point of this blog is to say don’t let hate, anger, sorrow, ego’s, jealousy, NOTHING, get the best of you and let you lose the good that’s coming to you. Take the bull in and shit it out. You will feel better once you let it go…

 

But if you’re anything like me, to those you have hate like feelings towards and feel like you have a legitimate reason to have those feelings you probably be like, “… why should I forgive them? Why should I let it go? Why should I care wither they live or die?” My answer to you and MYSELF are resentment distracts drains & limits God’s blessings. You cannot receive what you are unwilling to give…

 

 

 

 

 

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~ by liveliveandlove on March 15, 2009.