Blocking my own blessings

(writings not bold are whispers in your ear)

“If we say we love God and don’t love each other, we are liars. We cannot see God. So how can we love God, if we don’t love the people we can see?”

 

Have you ever hated, disliked, cant stand, whatever you want to call it somebody so much to the point you don’t care if they died tomorrow? You don’t care about how their family & friends will hurt. How their children won’t have a parent anymore. How their parents won’t have that child anymore. You just don’t give a fuck and will not have a bother in your heart, mind or soul?

 

I do….

 

I was bored at work one day and for some reason the people that I dislike the most were all standing there. Two of them I know exactly why they were there. But one really stuck out to me. I had to really take a look at myself and wonder why this person was there. I came up with a reason. It was a dumb reason but it was a reason.

 

Even the feelings I have towards the other 2 people. I feel they are legit reasons but in reality are they???

 

What does that say about me as a person? I can have feelings so strong and so wrong towards somebody and the reasons I come up with are even dumb to me?!?! I can hold on to anger and pain so tough to the point where I don’t care about that person losing their life?!?! “Be angry, and yet do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger.” Eph 4:26

 

That’s not cool! I had to check myself. It said a couple things to me like, I need to let a lot of things in my past go. I’m blocking my own blessings by having these feelings towards those people. I have a lot of anger in me that I need to let go so I can stop blocking my blessings because these feelings are not harbors on the people I have these feelings towards. They are harbors on me and my soul. I need to learn to forgive, forget and move on…  “If you do not forgive, neither will your father who is in heaven forgive your transgressions.” Mark 11:26

 

I guess the point of this blog is to say don’t let hate, anger, sorrow, ego’s, jealousy, NOTHING, get the best of you and let you lose the good that’s coming to you. Take the bull in and shit it out. You will feel better once you let it go…

 

But if you’re anything like me, to those you have hate like feelings towards and feel like you have a legitimate reason to have those feelings you probably be like, “… why should I forgive them? Why should I let it go? Why should I care wither they live or die?” My answer to you and MYSELF are resentment distracts drains & limits God’s blessings. You cannot receive what you are unwilling to give…

 

 

 

 

 

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VIDEO BLOG…

Sooooooo, a couple of people I know are doing the whole youtube video blog thing. I’ve decided I’m gone to try it out for a min since I can never find the time to actually sit at the computer and type out my thoughts. After typing on the computer all day at work, the last thing I want to do is come home and type out something that was on my mind that I wrote out while I was at work. So, I will be posting or linking my youtube blogs on here also. If you have a youtube account, add me as a friend and subscribe to my channel…

Live life and Love y’all,

    -P

I HAVE WHITE PEOPLE ISSUES

 
NOW THE TITLE OF THIS BLOG WAS JUST TO GET YOUR ATTENTION…
I don’t have white people issues. I have issues with IGNORANCE…
 
I am a very proud a black woman. I am one of the main people that will tell you quick I LOVE BEING BLACK. BUT… I’m not afraid to say, yes, sometime SOME black people are given to much of a pity party. SOME of us act like the white man (poor choice of words I know) is always out to get over on us. SOME of us think that we are owed this and that because of the simple fact that we are black, we were slaves, the “white man” wouldn’t have this or that if it wasn’t for black people doing it. He just put his name on it. WHATEVER!

I recently heard a poem by a 10yr old girl that kind of made me proud and mad at the same time. Proud of the fact that she is 10 and she had a major talent for writing poetry & that her parents introduced her and educated her in the art of poetry. Mad because although it is evident she is a very intelligent and bright young lady. Ignorance against none African American races has been planted into her, therefor she has hidden hate in her words and ignorant knowledge that at the age of 10 her mind shouldn’t even be thinking about. I know y’all probably are like “what is she talkin’ about, what video?” Below is the video?
 

 
Now the part that really got to me and made me go Wow. Really!!! The part where she said “Hanna Montana teaching black kids country Ebonics. The sweet life of everyone else but we. Everybody loves Raven but she hates herself. A non black reality that I cant see. Cory’s in the white house serving master. Being ruled by an 8 year old, while Cory’s dad is in the kitchen preparing dinner for master president. Because that’s the only way they could get in..” IGNORANCE… Something so simple and innocent, turned around and made into something wrong and evil into this little girls eyes. IGNORANCE.  “A non black reality that I cant see”. My question is why not? Black people cant like country slang? or does that mean black people cant like country music? Raven has to hate herself becauseeeeee, what? Because she is a young black teen that happens to live in a nice house, nice neighborhood, goes to a mixed school and her best-friend is white? “Cory’s in the white house serving master. Being ruled by an 8 year old, while Cory’s dad is in the kitchen preparing dinner for master president. Because that’s the only way they could get in..” Master?! Really! So because Cory dad is a great chef’ and happened to be asked by the president to be his personal chef which just so happens to be a black man, isn’t good enough reason right?! He has to be serving the 8yr old and not be friends?! So let me get this correct. Anytime a black man or woman is working for a “white” man or woman they are serving master right?! If you said yes, your ignorant. Its called doing a job. Correct me if I’m wrong but when we had “MASTERS”, we couldn’t just get up and leave. We couldn’t just say I quit. I’m sure he can and could if he want…

Stop taking everything out of context and making it something bad when its purely innocent. Lets grow up people. Lets stop being IGNORANT and lets stop teaching our children IGNORANCE. Its time for a change!

 

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